I’ve always considered myself to be a strong person, and no, I’m not talking about my guns!
I’ve actually gone as far as wearing this strength as a badge of honour and it became something that I was really proud of. I wanted to do everything on my own and not have to depend on anyone. This included not talking to others about how I was struggling or the challenges I was facing. I kept this all to myself; for fear that people would think I was weak.
When I hit my lowest of lows in 2011, I had no choice but to start to depend on others; my life coach Laurel, my healers and my close family and friends. I also had to start sharing my struggles which was not an easy thing for me to do after so many years of keeping it all to myself.
When I started out on my personal growth journey, I was doing a lot of reading. I was so inspired by the self-help gurus who have gone through serious shit in their lives; people like Gabby Bernstein who speaks openly about her alcohol and drug addiction and Robert Holden who grew up with an abusive, alcoholic father.
These amazing people went through all of this and not only came out the other side, but had done so well that they were now helping others to improve their lives. I thought that if they went through all that and sorted their lives out, surely I could do the same.
I was blown away at how brave they were to publicly share their stories and I remember thinking that there was no way that I could ever do that. To share my story would mean I would be putting myself out there for the whole world to judge.
Let’s face it; we live in a society where Facebook and Instagram are full of people’s highlight reels while the darker parts of our lives stay hidden.
We talk about our amazing families and vacations and all the great things that are happening but we are hesitant to share the bad days, the painful experiences and the shit that literally brings us to our knees. We feel that by revealing all aspects of our lives, we will be setting ourselves up to be criticized, judged and rejected.
But an amazing thing happens when we share our whole story, even the parts we deem embarrassing or undesirable. We start to step out from the darkness, into the light. There is an incredible amount of healing that happens when we allow ourselves to be vulnerable and honest about those ‘not so nice’ things in our lives.
By owning and sharing our story, we inspire others to do the same. We make it okay to talk not only about our joys, but about our struggles.
Sharing my story has allowed me to find freedom like never before. And I hope in doing so that it will help you find freedom as well.